good boy, greater man.

i am in love, i am in love with a person who lies to me but still convince me to trust him. i am in love with a person who have always took me for granted. i am in love with a person who used me, blind me from all of my flaws and fold out my worries but stabbed me hard and gently from behind. i am in love with a person who says "stop it" when i am on my way on cutting on my wrist while the real thing is all he ever wanted is for me to cut it deeper more than i could or would do. i fell in love with a person who sees no galaxies in my eyes but he tells me the other way around nonetheless. i fell in love with a person who never pays attention to me but pretending to do so. i fell in love with a person who told and warn me to be selfish for my own happiness while i a am all selfless just to make him happy. i fell in love with a person who never understands me and not trying to put an effort. i fell in love with a person that told me i am a falling angel and he will keep me to the zero zeros while all he ever said was a big lie. i am still in love with the person who's still in love for someone else but he told me not to worry cause he said he loved me then, he loves me now and he will still love me. i am still in love with a person who promised me his' zero zeros. i am still in love with a person who tells me all of his love towards me are from his heart and fill with sincerity while all was left is a spect of dust that burns out of him. i am still in love with a person that have always gave up on me but told me he did not. i am still in love with a person who hurt me so bad and leave me hanging every midnight waiting for him and shows up in the morning and tell me he really fucking give a damn shit about me. i am still in love with a person whom i cannot "unlove", in love with a liar, in love with a backstabber, in love with a prick who never appreciates me for anything at all. i am in love with a person who suitably called a boy instead of a man, but ladies and gentlemen i cannot unlove him. girls, with these black mascara trams down within my tears streaming from my face, i need to tell you something; do not be blind for a person who tells a lie to you, always watch your back on your own by turning around and protecting yourself first, if he is not in love with you, walk away baby girl. you got someone who have been dying and begging for your first chance. honestly i am not mad but i am in pain.

(i am in love with a boy who lies) via Instagram: @joehenne {heart content by norazlyn shariman}